A year goes by…

Ok, So i know its been forever since i’ve posted, But theres just been so much going on that its been hard to keep up. I apologize, and I will try to keep this updated more often. =] Jordan is turning one on the 27th, and is a healthy, happy young boy.

We’ve been through alot, issues with his dad, with my family, the county, etc. But we came out on top, so its all ok =].

I made my decision to start school, and find a job, and in doing so i made the decision to have jordan stay with my mom until i finished school and could support us. Its probably the hardest thing ever. Probably harder than the birth. Every day that I dont see him, I think about him constantly. Did he just take his first steps? Does he wonder where i go? 3 more days til i see him. I can make it three more days. When i finally get to see him, there is nothing more precious then the look of pure love that i get from him. Or those sloppy open mouth kisses. Everything I do right now is only for him. Well, its late, and i have school in the morning, So im going to sign off right now. But don’t worry. For those of you who will still read this, I’ll be back again soon. =]

-Teenage Mom.

Make up for the dead…

It’s been a while since I’ve published.

Alot has been going on lately.

Monday i had to go to an interview with the county to see if i qualified for cash assistance, food stamps, and medical insurance. So far i qualify for two out of three. We still have to send in a copy of our mortgage or something like that to see about the food stamps. But i have insurance and cash now! And hopefully by next week i have a phone! Woo hoo! I’ll get help for that to =] so thats really nice. I only have to pay 20 bucks with the plan that i want.

Tuesday we had my moms cousin Michele’s funeral. I got to see alot of my family and my aunt Debbie, so that was really nice. I dont really remember Michele. I guess i havent seen her for like 15 years or so, so that would put me at three when i last saw her. I decided that i really dont want to have an open casket funeral when i die. I want to be cremated. I dont want my family to remember me as looking like i belong in a wax museum. Make up artists for the dead do a horrible job. My aunt Debbie had a really hard time at the funeral. I felt so bad for her. She was friends with Michele before she was friends with my mom i believe, so it was really hard for her.

Wednesday i had my meeting with the Avon District Manager to start selling Avon. It turns out that me and my sister have the same district manager even though my sister sold Avon when we lived down in the cities! I’m planning to save most of the money that i get from selling Avon and put it in a rainy day fund. Just in case…

Thursday i spent almost all day at the hospital. I’ve been having these pains like the top of my uterus is bruised for like the past two weeks, and in the past couple of days it has only gotten worse. So i called the Clinic, and they told me go to the ER. So i spent seven or eight hours in Labor and Delivery, hooked up to an IV, and getting poked and prodded with a million different machines to run a million different tests. Good news is that nothing is wrong with Jordan. He is a healthy 2 pounds 4 ounces with a heartbeat of 130. He was VERY active last night, always showing off for the nurses, so I’m thinking im going to have to keep an eye on him when he starts noticing the ladies. Anywho. The doctor said that because the pain is very localized, they were going to have to do a different type of ultrasound that the ultrasound tech lady forgot to do, which means i have to go in again next week, besides for my doctors appointment. He also said that since there was nothing wrong with baby, that i should just try to relax and take it easy, and that the cause of my discomfort was that my stomach was probably inflammed, so he gave me a prescription for Zantac. Hopefully that helps because when i get the pains, they hurt really bad. I usually cant even sit down while im having them. That hurts the worst. Now not only do i have the pains in my stomach though, now my hands bruised from the IV. I really hate those things. I’ve never had one in before, and i really hope i dont have to have another one in anytime soon. But I can say that i do like the L&D area of the hospital, and that at least they have good TV in the rooms. It doesnt help that those beds are actually very comfortable!!!

Today mom and i went to a couple garage sales, and found some really cute outfits for Jordan, and a really nice small crib so that he can sleep in my room at night for the first couple months. That will be a big help since i wont have to really get out of bed and walk across the hallway to take care of him in the middle of the night, and he wont wake Mom or Shawn up. Hopefully…

-Teenage Mom.

Pictures of Kittens

Ok. So i admit it. I went a little camera crazy. But how can you not when your taking pictures of cute little baby kittens???

-Teenage Mom/Amatur Photographer

Leave my ribs out of this!

So Jordan has decided that he is most comfortable, when snuggled between my ribs. It makes the BH’s so much more UNcomfortable.

I’ll be happy once he’s settled on poking my ribs from the OUTside. That hurts a lot less.

I’m trying to get my sister to do a guest post. She has no idea what to post about though. Any ideas?

I went in for my lab today. Glad thats over and done with. Thankfully, they used a different type of needle this time. This one had a tube, so that the vial for getting the blood isn’t right next to your arm. It’s a much smaller needle and hurts a ton less.

Don’t even get me started on the nasty tang stuff. Actually, it smells just like Sunkist. So i was fooled when i opened it.

Hmm. Maybe this wont be so bad after all…

Then i took a sip. I wanted to throw up right away. For anyone reading this that has yet to do they’re Glucose testing, it is much easier to chug the stuff, if you have it in a glass and use a straw than from the bottle. It is carbonated, and that tiny bottle does not make for an easy drink. Heck. The drink itself does not make for an easy drink.

Now hes moving around down south again. Pick a spot already!!!

I have my next appointment in two weeks. Its hard to believe that i am almost 30 weeks. It has been going by so fast. I almost dont want it to end. ( I’m kind of liking the everyone taking care of me thing. =] ) But at the same time, I cant wait for it to be over.  I’m also thinking this blog will be getting a little bit more interesting once Jordan is born. =]

We have new baby kittens again. Six of them this time. They are SOOOOO cute! I will post some pictures once i upload them. =]

-Teenage Mom

Photography

Here’s just a couple that I’ve taken recently. For some reason, my camera has been calling to me lately to use it.  =] So i obeyed.

I have no idea who AJC might be, but who ever they are, they’re initials make for one fine picture. =] All of these were taken at a quarry near my house. it is breath taking there. And im not just talking about the jump! I love going there and swimming, and since thats about the only exercise i get, it works out just fine. =]

*Update* Tomorrow i go in for my lab. Nasty tang stuff, here i come. On the flip side, only 12 weeks left! Its going by soooo fast!

-Teenage Mom/Amatur Photographer.

Warning: Energy running low…

So i wake up today with absolutely NO energy. After breakfast, i went back upstairs to grab something, and some how ended up passing out on my bed for 2 hours. I don’t even remember climbing on to my bed.

Mom says I’m entering my “miserable stage” of pregnancy. No energy, back pain every day. Feeling like i just want this to be over with already.

I am not looking forward to that.

It doesn’t help that i have walking pneumonia as mom calls it. This stupid cough hasn’t gone away. If its not gone by Thursday, I’m going to have to see the Dr. instead of just having a lab visit.
On the bright side, I’ve been watching Tori and Dean, Home Sweet Hollywood, and at least i haven’t been having contractions like she has. I’ve been experiencing Braxton Hicks to some degree, but they’re just more uncomfortable than painful.

I’m tired, so i will update more tomorrow probably, when i have more energy.

-Teenage Mom.

Theres still so much to do!

So i get the mail today, when my friend drops me off, and Wal*Mart has decided to send me a baby registry booklet. I have no clue how they know im pregnant, but ok!

So i’m looking through the booklet, and i realized how much more stuff we had to get and what all had to be done to my sisters room to transform it into the nursery. I mean we have A LOT to do! We have to insulate that side of the house, run electrical through there, pull up carpeting and linolium, paint, put the crib together, get a rug, arrange the furniture, hopefully paint the dresser, get accessories if possible, and theres only 12 weeks left!!! Time is flying, and i have no idea where it is going! Every one told me that pregnancy would be the longest nine months of my life, but it is going by so fast!!!

On a good note, i talked to Danielle today. She should be home in about two weeks! Not so good news? Shes not going to like what home is going to be like almost as much as she hates Base. I just cant wait till shes home. I miss my Elle*phant.

-Teenage Mom.

And how are you feeling?

“Oh great! (My ass gets kicked everyday from the inside, if i lean too much one way, i fall over, and i dont fit into my skinny jeans anymore, but I’m doing just fine!) How about you?”

Of course, i never say whats in the ( ).

Seriously. If one more person asks me how i’m feeling, i think i might end up strangeling something. Every day from about at least five different people i get the question. I’ve come to dread going anywhere, because every time i show my face in puplic, i get random strangers coming up to me, and rubbing my belly and asking me how im feeling.

That is another thing i just cant stand. The rubbing of the belly. Yes, i know its there. I havent forgotten. Unfortuntately. When i was about five and a half months along, I went with danielle to her aunt’s to get a table for her graduation party. Out comes her cousin whom i’ve never met before. And what is the first thing she does? Comes over to me, and whips up my shirt and starts rubbing my belly! Like seriously! I dont even know you, and your getting all personal like this? When my aunt was pregnant, i never even rubbed her belly with out asking. And she’s family! Its just completely rude and uncalled for to rub someones belly whom you dont know. But yet, there is something about pregnancy, that seems to make everyone think that you are communal property, and it doesnt matter what you think anymore. LIke with giving advice! If i wanted your advice, i would ask for it. And trust me. I know im going to need alot of advice. I would just rather get the advice from someone i’ve known my whole life, and trust a little bit more than some stranger off the street.

I guess this ended up as more of a rant. Ah, who cares. We all have those days dont we?

Oh and it doesn’t help that there is only four more days till i have to drink that nasty tang stuff, and get my blood drawn. I will be in such a better mood after this is over. I promise.

-Teenage Mom.

The Infamous Belly Pictures!

Since absolutely no one has left me alone on the topic, I decided, why not immortalize my humongeousness on my blog as well!

The shirt doesnt help anything…

this ones my favorite.

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Attack of the killer stretch marks!

I swear! I did NOT swallow that watermelon!

And now. My fatness is forever Immortalized.

=]

-Teenage Mom.

Inspiring…

As i get further along in my pregnancy, one topic seems to always invade my thoughts. Will i make a good mother? Or will i end up as one of those mothers that everyone thinks should never have had kids. (god i pray not).

How would i chose to parent my son, having to make double the decisions being both father and mother? I figured i would most likely take the same stand on certain things as my mother, but what about the other things?

What about dating? Curfew? The friends he hangs out with? Phone calls during dinner?

Looking back now, i realize that my mother was very lenient about alot of things. Even though at the time, I thought it was outrageously strict.

I realize that it is quite impossible to plan out everything for the next 18 years, in the first 9 months. Although most don’t find out about pregnancy till three months, so actually 6 months. I digress. I just keep thinking about my parenting style and what it’s going to be like generally.

A couple weeks ago, i had a conversation with my sister Candace. Luckily, i have Gmail, (which i would recommend to everyone. And do!) so i don’t have to worry about stressing out my pregnancy induced forgetful mind, and i can copy-paste the chat!

ok. Now i feel stupid. I cant find the chat. hahaha.

Anywho. The chat was about what type of mom i was planning to be, how i would raise my son, and i guess that’s what really got me thinking about it almost daily.

And then, about a week ago, i come across my best friend Danielle’s Lynyrd Skynyrd CD. What was the first song on the CD? Simple Man. If you don’t know the song, it is about a mother giving advice to her only son. My situation exactly right?

“Now momma told me. When i was young,
Come sit beside me, My only son.
And Listen closely baby, to what i say.
And if you do, It will help you.
Some sunny day.

Boy take your time.
Don’t live to fast.
Troubles will come. Oh and they will pass.
You’ll find a woman, Oh baby, and You’ll find love.
And dont forget son, there is someone up above.

And be a simple, kinda man.
Oh be something, You love and understand.
Oh baby be a simple, be a simple man.

Oh wont you do this, only son. if you can.

Forget your lust. For rich mans gold.
All that you need. Is in your soul.
Oh you can do this. Oh baby. If you try
All that i want for you my son, is to be satisfied.

And be a simple, kinda man.
Oh be something, You love and understand.
Baby be a simple, be a simple man.

Oh wont you do this, only son. If you can

(Oh yes i will, I’ll be your simple man)

Boy dont you worry. You’ll find yourself.
Follow your heart, Oh and nothing else.
And you can do this. Oh baby, If you try.
All that i want for you my son. Is to be satisfied.

Repeat Chorus x2″

I listened to this song, this time, more intently than i have listened to any other song. It just seems to make perfect sense to me, on how i want to raise my son. This is exactly what i want for Jordan. My next step is how to convey this concept to him.

I could not have said it any better than Lynyrd.

-Teenage mom.